When I was Paralyzed

When I was younger we played down by the creek.
When I was younger you were not like the other girls
When I was younger we would splash and play the entire day
When I was younger I noticed why you weren't like the other girls.
When I was younger I couldn't truly appreciate your beauty
When I was younger I knew we would last an eternity
When I was younger you became my first lover
When I was younger the world was in our hands.

When I was paralyzed I thought the world would end.
When I was paralyzed, I knew the good days were gone.
When I was paralyzed I could no longer go down to the creek with you
When I was paralyzed I could no longer make love to you
When I was paralyzed I knew I would have to walk again.

When I walked again I was leaving behind a bit of myself
When I walked again I knew I could never return to this place
When I walked again I visited the creek and splashed
When I walked again the simple joys of life was lost to me
When I walked again I realized my life would move on.

When my life moved on I never found another girl like you
When my life moved on I went to college but I felt alone in the swarm of students
When my life moved on I graduated but the victory over the professors was hollow
When my life moved on back in 1956, I realized yours wouldn't

I can laugh and sing and dance, when you couldn't.
I can fall in love I can cry at a sad movie, when you can't.
I can go down to the creek and splash to my hearts content, when you can't.
I can sit with my grandchildren and tell them of the good ol days, but you can't.
I can grow old with someone I love, when you will forever be 16.

I was 16 when I found and lost my soulmate
I was 16 when I was paralyzed
I was 16 when I walked again
I was 16 when I realized I can move on
I was 16 when I realized you will never have a full life.

A lot of things happened when we were 16.
For all the pain I endured,
for all the sleepless nights
For all the times I thought I could smell your hair only to remind myself I cant
for all the hours spent mourning
for all the regret I have I know one thing to be true.

I never stopped worrying about you
I never stopped mourning you
I never stopped thinking about you
I never stopped hearing your laugh
I never stopped loving you.

So now I lay on my deathbed and I wait eagerly for Death.
So now I lay on my deathbed alone with no one left to care about me
So now I lay on my deathbed and I realize something and I smile.

When a soulmate dies they are forever trapped within your heart.
Its a reminder you see, that one day you will be reunited in death.


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You think this can work towards my NaNo count?

Not sure why I wrote all of that. Not sure if it makes sense or if I conveyed the message. The whole thing just sorta came out of me.

Not even sure if all that repitition was really needed... of course while maybe it needs a huge revising and editing I would leave the repition in it. But oh well.

It's very sweet, but makes little sense. How can the dude walk again if he's been paralysed? And what does that have to do with him losing his love?

Hannah_Banana222 wrote:It's very sweet, but makes little sense. How can the dude walk again if he's been paralysed? And what does that have to do with him losing his love?

Its a metaphore. I think I accidentally deleted or neglected to mention it. The idea was when he saw her tombstone he was 'paralyzed' his couldn't move or think or do anything. The whole world crashed around him and he was mourning what he could no longer do with her. At the end of that segment is when he is walking away from the grave.

Ah... In that case, good job.