The Desire to Write...

Since last November I haven't written anything and I have had very little desire to do it. Perhaps I am bugged with the NaNoWriMo Curse. Where I somehow need that pressure to write. Oddly enough this desire comes just as Camp NaNoWriMo started like 5 days ago. Similar to NaNoWriMo only it's during June and August.

But still it feels great. But I am also a bit scared. I have barely written anything for over a year or so. I am also kinda afraid that if I put it off to long I'll lose this desire. The last time this happened I ignored it and then it passed. But I also know that I shouldn't stop me from writing. How am I supposed to get any better if I don't write?

I am also rather eager to return to an old story of mine. It's a Joan of Arcadia fanfic about Joan's stay at Gentle Acres. I am going to do a complete rewrite of it. Mostly because it was poorly written and there was one major flaw in it that I didn't see until someone pointed it out to me. I always wanted to correct it too.

So this should be fun.

First session of writing done! I got about 900 words written and they just seem to all suck. No emotion or anything spectacular about it. I did however find out that Old Lady God plays Mrs. McClusky on Desperate Housewives. How I never put that together is beyond me.

But you know. I am just out of practice and I think I am to worried about getting it perfect. But I just need to get back into things.

Glad to hear you're back to what you do best! Make sure you post anything good (or at least anything that's not utter crap).

No Hannah, you are supposed to say "Don't post anything good, because you only write amazing stuff." or something.

Well I wish I could. MOST of your stuff is amazing, but I wouldn't say that's all you write.

Remember the story about the guy getting attacked by a bear? That was not good. I don't even remember what happened. I had no idea it was even about getting attacked by a bear. You'd think that would be an awesome concept, and that I would love it, but no. I completely zoned out a few sentences in. I remember reading the whole thing and thinking, "Wait, what happened?" It was only when I read Rex's comment of admiration (as he had suggested the idea of the story) that I even knew the basic premise.

Maybe it was good. I don't know. Maybe I just have a horrible attention span. Well I KNOW that's true. I generally don't remember anything I read, but with your stuff, it's different. If a story is good enough, I'll pay attention. You usually can capture my attention, but with the bear story, it just wasn't happening.

And I haven't even attempted to read your novels, Becoming Dead and... did you have another one? I don't remember. See? You really do need to write more. It's not that I don't expect it to be good. I'm just not a book person. I've been reading Under the Dome for 3 years, and I'm on page 12. Seriously. I cannot just sit and read for hours on end. Not happening.

But seriously, you're a great writer. Most of the time.

Yeah I wouldn't start reading Becoming Dead or any of my other larger stuff... I tend not to um... finish them.

Which is actually hillarious considering I recently made a post about cancellations and how it would be nice if the networks would just let us know how it ends.

Also I don't think I ever remember writing a story about a bear attack. I actually thought it was a different animal/creature. Though if it was I never did understand why I named the story after the scientific name for bear.

1 google search later.

Holy crap. It was a bear. Heh I also forgot I posted it up on my blog on a writing forum.

While that story could use some polishing... but looking at my current work in progress I am wondering if I have actually gotten worse... well I suppose I am ust really out of practice.

Back when I wrote that I had been writing a short story every other week or so. But as of late I have barely written anything.

Now I just need to figure out if whether or not that inspires me or if... that you know is soul crushing.

You should probably start wrapping some of that stuff up. Seriously. Don't even start writing new stuff until you finish your old stuff. HOW LONG has it been since you first started The Black Cat? Exactly. Too damn long.

You've said that you have a basic idea of how your longer works end, right? So it shouldn't be too hard. Get to work.

Hannah_Banana222 wrote:You should probably start wrapping some of that stuff up. Seriously. Don't even start writing new stuff until you finish your old stuff. HOW LONG has it been since you first started The Black Cat? Exactly. Too damn long.

You've said that you have a basic idea of how your longer works end, right? So it shouldn't be too hard. Get to work.

Ahh yes... The Black Cat. God I really need to rewrite that story. Almost everything bugged me about it and I think that's why I never finished it. I know how it ends. Well sorta. Theres one issue I have yet to resolve. But yeah. I just never liked how that story came out. Loved the idea... just not the execution.

The big problem is that I just keep losing interest in them. When I do get reinterested it feels more like I need to rewrite it.

Glad to see that you are writing again. How is it going?

x_mia_x wrote:Glad to see that you are writing again. How is it going?

Not bad. I started to rewrite something but put it on pause for awhile and starting writing a short story... and then I put that on pause and finished a different short story which you can read in either the media or the writers corner. lol